Question: I cannot help regretting the lack of awareness. I have desire for the arising of awareness. Can I tell myself not to have desire?

Answer: When you understand that desire counteracts progress there will be conditions to stop wishing for results. Only intellectual understanding of the teachings, acquired by reading, considering and discussing can condition the arising of direct understanding, now or later on. There will be more patience when we remember that awareness and understanding do not belong to a self which can make them arise. Then, we can have the courage to begin again and again to find out more about any reality appearing at this moment.